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My Gray Child
by John McCluskey
crescent moon in mourning gray
three inches long
three months
waning
broke away
one easter sunday morning
in some year
before our first child
was born
in some year
before 1991
we awoke
my wife felt
rejection expulsion
in untimely
unwelcome
muscle waves and
thy will was done
an extra chromosome the science behind it
from a sterile
looking chair
in some doctor's office
i heard
our gray child's
heartbeat
in early spring
expecting the birth
in the future fall
i had to sit down
steel myself
for ultrasound's announcement
having no idea
how to internalize
the rapid-fast fury of
spanking new thumps
coaxed from behind
a thick muscled wall of tomb
where this shy heart
should have
honed its rhythm
on its own
before they rolled away the stone
easter arrived early that year before 1991
i prefer snow
on easters in march
nice to think
of colored eggs
in last nest
of winter's white womb
what better reason
to miss a family holiday
then again
snow might have made
our hospital trip
dangerous passage
in that year
during my thirties
and we did
need to leave
our specimen
(our child)
to identify
which wind
shook fresh fruit
from our tree
as if a miscarriage
would excuse me
had i decided it was too soon
anyway to fall in love
with this child
oh love
how i love
when easter arrives early in spring
when i am overwhelmed by the passage of time
when i produce a good heartfelt prayer
when i am alone
when my wife and i are at home
when i drive across the fat part of my flat illinois birthplace
when i realize that a good heartfelt prayer is not something one produces
when my eye catches some rogue star in heaven's wet ink
speeding away from its pack
along the curved back of time
when everything i love diminishes me to joy
and i understand, my gray child, that everything that happens to me
does not happen to me alone.
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